November 25, 2006

• I'm now out of another job. Once again, nothing I could do about it // nothing I did. But its still frustrating. I understand part time jobs don't have much security, but isn't it a little ridiculous that this has happened to me four times in about a year and a half?! It gets harder and harder each time. I really really liked this job. And I'm almost numb to what happened,  I haven't really felt much of anything since it happened. I didn't get to be with my family for Thanksgiving- and I didn't have a bad one, I just missed mine.

  And now I'm just sitting...

  I just don't understand why it KEEPS happening. I don't try to completely rely on myself. I rarely even worry about money, and if I do its much less than what my finances probably deserve. I am always trying to give it all to God- and I was just getting back on my feet financially. I don't understand why I have to KEEP getting broken down. At the worst times, too. I really don't feel like I've been proud- and they may sound pretentious- but I'm being honest. I feel like I work so hard but instead of propelling me forward I just take another step backwards. I've worked so hard these past few years and none of it adds up to anything.

  parrtay

  • 9:25 pm
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